Today I am so sad to report the following story to you guys and I can confidently say that this is one saddest thing I have written on internet and the closest of my feelings that I am going to share today.
The uneventful beginning
So as usual I was travelling back to home from my Internship at NIOT (National Institute of Ocean Technology) on the bike that I had borrowed from my friend. I was just casually traversing in the traffic and reach a location where there was a big open stretch and it was a long-curved stretch. At the end of the stretch there was speed- breaker and another lane joined from the right side, nothing unusual just normal highway junction.
The Horryfying scene
Usually this is the place where most of the vehicles would use their brakes for the speed breaker and there are usually many red tail lights flashing for the same reason. But this time it was different. There lies a man with his legs underneath his motor cycle and head bleeding, by looks it might have happened a few minutes earlier. All the bikes near this scene were coming to a stop, and a few cars too.
At first, I couldn’t make anything of the situation from a far but as I came closer the picture became clear. My heart sank, seeing the man lying his helmet few feet ahead. I came to a near stop but I couldn’t stop. I can say truly that I feel so sorry for that man and I really didn’t have any courage to witness the situation and got scared so much.
As I was passing another man came to the scene and I saw him checking the man’s face and looking for the injury. Now as I shamefully with no wits or courage, moved ahead, this picture would no longer leave my head. For a few days I had been riding a tad bit aggressively but still looking around and be safe for myself and for others too having a good situational awareness. Now anything more than normal felt fatal. I even thought of stopping and going back to help the man but it was too late, fear took over me.
We are really not that strong
The whole mood changed; I kept on thinking how weak I was mentally to not even be able to help such a man. I previously thought myself to be mentally stable and even strong but now I can confidently say that I AM NOT THAT STRONG. In fact, now I even believe that anyone who feels strong mentally or even physically will not be strong as they think they are. It is these kinds of situations that show us the real heroes that we as a society have. EVERYONE IS A COWARD UNLESS YOU DECIDE NOT TO BE.
From that moment I started getting sad and reviewing my life decisions that brought me to this moment. Even though that had nothing to do with my life but still it was my life decisions that played a major role in my behaviour in that specific situation. I am truly thankful to anyone and everyone that is able and willing to do things intentionally in such situations because cowards like me cannot take it.
This led to another worst-case scenario, I stay alone in chennai, even if I disappeared no one would know, I sometimes feel sorry for myself for this very thought. I started thinking if I would get injured or God forbid, die. It would take at least 1 or 2 days for the information to get to my loved ones. I am so sorry to speak such words but this was much needed vent. I urge you all take care of yourselves and wear helmet at all times and make sure you wear it properly. The helmet strap that we use to put on should be tight and not be hanging down the jaw (note to self).
If you’re reading this, please make a call to your loved ones or go talk to them. Life is very unpredictable now you know, tomorrow you don’t know. Don’t stress about things so much take it easy. There is always someone you can talk to just take time and decide who is that person going to be (note to self).
During the way back home, I kept telling to myself this one thought I saw on Instagram reels “WHEN YOU SHOW BRAVERY EVEN WHEN YOUR SCARED, THAT ITSELF SHOWS THAT YOU ARE BRAVE.” “WE CAN CHOSE TO BE BREAVE EVEN WHEN WE ARE SCARED” and believe it or not this is what fathers do in bad situations for their family.
Thankyou for reading and giving me your time, sorry there was nothing educational and this was just one of those days that just hits you hard.
Take care of your loved ones.
Mradanshu
Aka Mudit.
Love to all
